Somber Reminders

Last Friday I went to a concert. I saw Chris Daughtry and Lifehouse on the same stage! So much fun. Those guys put on an amazing show. When we got there and found our seats I was a little disapointed. I don't particularly like the way that arena is set up. It just feels so impersonal. I can't explain my logic so if you don't understand, it's ok. Moving on. Soon after the show started I began to appreciate our location just a little bit more. The lead singer from Lifehouse walked right past us and sat down just a few feet away. I guess it pays to get seats right next to security! My husband and step-son got to briefly meet the band and shake hands with each member. The girl behind me got a hug! Then the drama happened.

I saw an unfortunate incident unfold right in front of us. People in our immediate family who also happened to be there were escorted out by the police. My step-son was in tears and one thing kept running through my mind. Praise God that I am not the person I used to be. While the concert was incredibly awesome, nothing takes the place of good old fashioned worship. I've seen Third Day live. Those guys not only rock out, they rock out while they praise God. That is the kind of enviornment I enjoy being in. 10,000 screaming fans enjoying good music while lifting up the name of Jesus- that is my heaven.

I am so thankful that I worship Jesus and not Jack Daniels. It was an amazing night but it was also a night full of drama and sadness. My step-son saw things that no child should have to see. While it pains me that he was so hurt on his birthday, it is also a somber reminder of where I've come from and where I never hope to return. It is a reminder that everything we do affects everyone around us. Every day when I wake up I ask God to show me how to do it right. Show me, Lord how to be the mother you created me to be. I want to avoid making choices that reflect poorly on you, I want to show my child what the love of Christ really looks like, and I want to stray further and further away from the life I left behind when I turned to Jesus and away from Jack Daniels.